Sunday, May 29, 2011

Remembering Jesus

Colossians 2:6-7 (New King James Version)

6 As you therefore have received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in Him, 7 rooted and built up in Him and established in the faith, as you have been taught, abounding in it[a] with thanksgiving. 

This scripture above made me remember what happened to my life when I met Jesus.  I was invited to church to see my best friend get baptized.  This friend had invited me to church several other times but I was too tired from drinking and hanging out the night before.  But this was special because she was getting baptized and I wanted to support her.  Well little did I know I would come in contact with the man that would become everything to me, the man that would become more of a friend to me then anybody could ever be.  After the sermon, I remember saying to myself "What I heard did not come from a man, that was from God"  I remember thinking that a man could never have wisdom like that, I knew it had to be from God.  I kept coming back on Sundays then I started attending bible study on Wed night.  I went up one Sunday to join the church.  The counselors took me back, talk to me about sin, had me pray the prayer for salvation.  I did all that but I wasn't saved.  I just did what they said so I could be a part of their church.  I just knew that I wanted to be a part of whatever was going on at that church.  One evening after bible study, at home, I asked Jesus Christ  to come into my life and my heart and to turn my life around.  I told him that I have been trying to control my life for years and it has gotten me nowhere.  I gave my life over to Jesus Christ.  There were 3 people that God used in an extremely powerful way to orchestrate that moment in my life.  My life did change after that.  It was really great, but not easy.  As time went by life got harder, the devil does not make it easy to walk with God.  But my relationship with God has continued to mature and it as solid as it's ever been.  I have a quiet and unwavering faith, an understanding that God makes His will clear in my life, and a life that I never could have imagined.  I am a full-time stay-at-home mom.  My husband is an entrepreneur and an awesome provider.  My daughter is healthy, smart, full of life, and building her own relationship with God.  Sure, there are some things that we are still waiting to fall into place in our lives but that is going to happen very soon.  I've recently stepped into pursuing my dream of working with horses.  I'm hoping to build up some confidence with these very intimidating animals and learn as much as a can about caring for them and of coarse my favorite part; riding them.

Jesus, I remember how you turned my life around and You are still building a great life for myself and my family.  Thank You for how you have guided me as a mom and a wife.  Thank you for all the wisdom in caring for my daughter and leading me to the right resources to keep her in the best of health.  Thank you for helping me to be a more caring and supporting wife to my husband.  Thank you that we have learned to work better as a team and that we have learned to respect each other and love each other with all our flaws and weaknesses.  Thank you for helping us to encourage and build one another up.  Thank you for the insight you give us into each others heart.   

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Wanting vs, Waiting

As children we want things like toys and to go to fun places and to play with our friends.  There are times where I parents couldn't get us those things soon enough,  sometimes our parents couldn't get us those things at all.  Waiting is a skill that we can help our children with starting very young.  Although I don't think waiting for something you want is easy for anybody, I do think that if you give your child everything they want and they never have to wait for anything and they are never denied anything, they grow up with a false perception of how life is.  Then if and when they develop their own relationship with God, they are going to come in direct conflict with their upbringing.  They will struggle against God a lot in that area. I pray about that a lot with my daughter because her dad and I love giving her the things that she wants, we love making her happy. But I know how much waiting and being patient has been a part of getting closer to God and I want her to have the benefit of being taught about that in our home for her future relationship with God.  On the flip side, I love thinking about how the way we care about Noah and how we want to make her happy gives us a glimpse into the heart of God and how He feels about His children.

Parenting Lesson from the ultimate Parent

I just yelled at Noah because she was crying and I was trying explain to her that what I was trying to do for her would make her happy.  I was trying to get her to hear me over top of her crying.  Well, it made me think about God.  As a child of God when I'm crying or complaining, God doesn't yell or get louder just so I can hear Him over my cries or complaining, no He waits until I get quiet enough to hear His still small voice.  His tone stays the same in our lives, He doesn't adjust it for our sakes.  As a parent instead of yelling at Noah, even when it's for something good, I should just wait until she gets quiet enough to hear my voice.  Good Parenting Lesson from God  

Thursday, May 26, 2011

Carpets Clean (tip)

When we had Stanley Steamer come in and clean our carpets they warned against all the store bought carpet cleaners.  They actually make the carpets more dirty in the long run.  They break down the fibers and the residue left from them is a magnet for dirt, making carpets more dirty.  That's why when you use them, the carpets seem clean for a period of time, then the spots come back they look even more dirty.  So I asked what the best thing to use is and they said boiling hot water and vinegar.  When I first heard that, I was like how in the world do you do that.  But I figured out how, and although it's not the most convenient thing, it really works, and I don't have to worry about stains coming back. What I do is boil water in a pot with 1 cup or 2 or vinegar.  I keep it boiling the whole time I'm doing the carpet.  You need some gloves or something to protect your hands from heat. But I take a hand towel, dip it in the boiling water, let the water drain off a little bit then take it right to the area where I'm cleaning and scrub.  You do have to keep running back and forth to the boiling pot, but until I find a better way this works for me, at least I have a way to clean my carpet now.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

"Stay-at-home mom" diaries

You have to get used to your house constantly being in use and that means it never stays clean. 
You have to get used to your workplace, resting place, recreational place, and everything all co-existing in the home
You have to learn how to divide your personal time and personal space which is an craft I'm still trying to perfect.
You have to learn what to do when in order to make for the most productive, peaceful day.  When little one's are at home with you, it's strictly about survival. 
Learn to use playgrounds and other "free" play areas as a refuge.
You have to know in your heart it is all worth it even when you feel like you are doing it all wrong.

Monday, May 23, 2011

Look for 3 Confirmations

1.  The word of God - Primary Authority
2.  The Holy Spirit's Leading
3.  Other People

These are the 3 ways I've known God to confirm things in my life.  The order is important because if it doesn't line up with His word then it's not from Him. 

Keep hitting a crossroad

Was doing some praying about wisdom this morning and I learned from Proverbs 14:8 that the wisdom of the prudent is to understand his way.  I am struggling a little bit with that right now in my life.  I don't know what I should be focused on with Noah and with my own tasks and I'm trying to understand my way in this season.  There is an area of great struggle concerning Noah right now.  Boundaries with play time with her father and I.  When we leave her to her own devices she seems fine but when we start to engage in play or activities with her she doesn't want to let us stop and we have a fit on our hands.  She is constantly asking us "Will you play with me?"  Even when we are in the car on the way home she is asking "You play with me when we get home?".  Even while we are playing with her she says "You want to play with me?".  It's getting out of hand.  The thing that concerns me is I don't really want to be all or none but that what it seems like we are going to have to do.  I feel like God did that to me in a sense.  I feel like when I had first gotten saved and I was a baby in Christ, God was all in my face constantly doing things in my life to get and keep my attention.  But not long after, probably about 2 or 3 years I felt like He stepped away.  It took me awhile to understand it.  But God knows my personality and He knows what was necessary for me to mature as a Christian.  I have matured as a result.  I'm wondering if I need to do the same thing in Noah's life right now.  It's hard for me because I want to make sure she is learning all the things that children need to learn at this age.  I'm scared to take that step back that God did with me.  But I beginning to think it's a necessary step for Noah and her relationship with God.  I might be standing in the way of what He wants to do in her if I don't take heed.  I never understood why God kind of stepped back in my life and started doing things differently while still affirming the same talents and gifts; but He obviously wants to produce something in me.  Maybe He wants to produce something in Noah as well.  Maybe He is using her to send me a message.  I think I struggle with the fact that when I step back it poses a problem for me because I don't really know what to do with myself at home with a 3 year old, not playing with her or doing activities with her.  I really feel like God is trying to use Noah's issue to address an issue with me.  What does He want to show me?   

Thursday, May 19, 2011


As I go through my days a stream of thoughts play through my head that revolve around the things I want, the things I want to do, what I want to contribute to my family and the world around me, etc.  The list is never ending and can be downright exhausting.  As I was thinking today, I asked myself "Once you get these things you are thinking about today, what are you going to want next?"  My flesh has an insatiable appetite that can never be satisfied, that's why the bible warns about the desires of the flesh.  The word that popped in my mind is "Attain".  The world teaches that we are suppose to enjoy our lives, our jobs, our work, etc.  The world teaches that if we are not happy something is wrong.  I have learned that while there are many things in this life that God has given us for our enjoyment, that is not what life and your days are about.  As a child of God "Happiness" should not be my goal in life.  This life is not the end for me, I will go on to live an eternity with God Himself.  This life I'm in now is a stage to prepare me for the life to come.  It's not about my happiness or the things that I want...............It's about my preparation. (PERIOD)  While that is a hard thing to swallow at times, it is something that can lead to great contentment when you embrace it.   Life is a lot more peaceful once you get to a point where you are reaching to attain that which is right in God's eyes.  The scripture below comes to mind.  When my mind gets overcrowded with wants, desires, and fears I will think about the scripture below in order to re-focus and regain peace. 

Philippians 3:12
12 Not that I have already attained, or am already perfected; but I press on, that I may lay hold of that for which Christ Jesus has also laid hold of me.

I pray that I lay hold of that purpose for which Christ has laid hold of me.  Amen.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

Starting slow so I can be nice

There are a ton of important things we need to do for and with our kids.  Teaching them to behave properly, teaching their ABCs and 123s, teaching them about other people, how to build relationships, etc.  But the most important thing is to teach them love.  Sometimes I have to sacrifice doing things for her in order to love myself by giving myself a break.  I was going to make pancakes this morning but ended up popping frozen french toast in the microwave instead because I needed to take some time this morning to wake up and really re-focus my thoughts.   When I take the time to see to my needs and show myself some love, it helps me to love my family better. My days have been productive but also busy and I don't always know when the time is to slow down a bit.  It's often time hard to see past your family and your "daily to-do's".  But I start to miss myself amidst everything and I need to re-connect.  Sometimes I miss certain aspects of the person I was before marriage and kids.  I miss thoughts that focused on something other than cleaning, cooking, etc.  Sometimes I feel like I have to re-visit the place in my heart where my dreams and passions live.  Some of my most favorite things to remember are:
1.  When I came to trust Jesus Christ as my personal Lord and Savior
2.  Helping small businesses with their marketing
3.  The opportunities I was able to take advantage of working with USAID as a contractor and all the different exciting responsibilities I had
4.  How God has helped me become content in my role as a homemaker

God's peace abides within me, his strength sustains me, and His hands cover me.  My prayer is that I am always using the talents that God has given me according to His will and the season of life that I'm in. 

Monday, May 16, 2011

Take a step back

Last week was busy for us.  Hubby was out of town for the week and Noah (my daughter) and I took a road trip to visit family. Got back Friday and had a birthday party to attend on Saturday which put us out of the house all day again Saturday.  Got up and went to church on Sunday and then lunch after church than we were home for the day.  Got up this morning for an 8:40am doctor's appt for Noah.  Went to see my grandmother at a Care and Rehabilitation center and the store.  At home, contemplating whether or not I'm going to take Noah to gymnastics.  Sometimes it's good to not jump right back into you normal routine.  Sometimes it's good to take a step back and re-evaluate.  I'm trying to figure out what extra curricular activity I want to put Noah in this summer.  With a new season right around the corner.  I don't just want to keep going and going without stopping and re-grouping.

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Products I want to try

Covergirl Queen Collection Lipsticks - I normally use Smashbox but want to try something different.
MAC Skinsheen Leg Spray - This sounds like a neat thing for the summer
A Good Leave-in Conditioner - My daughter and I have curly hair, any suggestions???

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Lessons learned this week

-You can learn a lot from family
-When being led to take a big step of faith, God can put a weight of peace on you that just won't lift
- Want's are fleeting, but needs constantly hover over you when you don't take care of them
-Don't underestimate the importance of your "needs"
  1. Your need for nutritious meals
  2. Your need to exercise
  3. Your need to take care of your feet because you're on them so much (can somebody say monthly pedicure)
  4. Your need to at least touch on those things that give you the greatest satisfaction sometimes
  5. Your need for balance and to be in tune with what that means for your life
  6. Sensing and responding to your own limitations.
I believe in having a healthy respect for your "needs" and and your "want's".  I believe in having a understanding of your inner flow so you can create outward balance with what you chose to do and how you chose to do it.  

Friday, May 6, 2011

The world is tough

I believe that everybody needs a soft place to fall at home.  A warm, inviting place filled with love.  There is a little girl at my daughter's school who happen to be one of her favorite friends.  Well, she told me yesterday that this little girl wasn't her friend on the playground.  She wasn't sad, because we've talked to her about having other friends and playing with everyone in her class and we have talked to her about how some friends will change and might not want to be friends anymore.  But it made me think about how important it is for our children to have the consistency of loving fellowship in their home.  They go out into a tough world even at the tender age of 3.  It's really important for my daughter to know that her daddy and I will always rejoice in how God has created her, we will always love her, and we will always enjoy her company and spending time with her.  I want Noah to have a sweet enough fellowship at home, to fight all the bitter that is out in the world. 

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Just comes natural

We all have things that come natural to us.  Strengths, that are not always easy but we know in our hearts we have a knack for certain things.  Sometimes your willingness is not matched up with some of the natural ability that God gave you.  Have you ever "not felt like" doing something that you know you have a knack for.  Have you ever disliked an area where you know your strengths are?  I have learned to stay away from certain preached messages in the church.  There are messages that communicate that if you are gifted in certain areas than those are the areas enjoy working in most in your life.  That's not necessarily true.  Messages that lead you to believe when you feel like you can't go on one more day you are right  on the verge of "your breakthrough".  That's not necessarily true either.  Gotta be careful. The overall message of my life is just learn how to lean on God more everyday and learn about His person so you can continue to build your relationship with Him.  He shows you want He desires for your life, the paths He wants you to take as you walk with Him.   

Barack Obama chose the path of greatest risk, but also greatest reward.

The willing heart

The title of my article was quoted from an article about the decision Barack Obama made to secretly send the special opps team into an enemy fortress of a suburban neighborhood of a sovereign country.  The article said "Barack Obama chose the path of greatest risk, but also greatest reward".  It really made me think about my life and my heart.  What am I willing to do and carry out if God leads me?  Are there areas where I've been unwilling, because of fear and sacrifice?  Are there things that God wants me to do now where if I would just pray about my willingness to obey, He would show me??? 

Monday, May 2, 2011

I need you

Dear God,
I need you to be with me today.  I need You to speak to me today.  I need you to guide me today.  I need to experience Your love today and I need your power to love others.  Lord help me to be gentle and kind to my daughter when she is misbehaving, help me to discipline in love.  Help me to show her that even when she acts up I can continue to show her love.  Help me to be the person you designed me to be today.  Help me to lean on You Lord.  In Jesus name Amen

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Gonna sound crazy!

I hope nobody reads this post because it's gonna sound kind of crazy.  There was a time when I felt like God was so in my face, doing mighty things.  Outrageous things in my life and then something changed in our relationship.  I didn't know what had happened.  I thought something was wrong.  I didn't "feel" God in my life the way I use to.  There was a quietness that I had never experienced in my relationship with God and it scared me.  But over the years God has shown me that our relationship had matured and it was just different, nothing wrong with it, it's just different.  Well, my husband and I have been going through some issues with our daughter.  She is very demanding of us to spend lots of time playing with her.  She is 3.  The problem is that we both play with her a lot and now she throws fits if want to get up just to take a 2 minute break.  She has done it 3 times already.  When we went through this before I had to really step back from her and keep my distance in terms of playing for awhile and life was much more peaceful that way.  No tantrums.  But me being the "hands-on mother that I am I figured it would be ok to start playing at home with her again.  Obviously I was wrong it wasn't ok.  I just feel like a "good" mom plays with her kids.  But I'm reminded of Ecclesiastes chapter 3.  It talks about there being a time for everything.  I think this is the time the Noah needs me to refrain from being involved in her playtime until she matures enough to handle my being involved.  It sounds weird because she is only 3 but I lie to you not, when I stepped back and stopped playing with her she was much more content.  I guess this is the season for it.  Now, the question is what am I going to do with myself?  hm-m-m-m-.  

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