I have had this blog for about 7 years now, yet I have found myself wondering about my audience. Nobody leaves any comments so I wonder "Who is reading it?". I wonder what my audience needs in their lives right now. I know there is a purpose why you are here on this blog. I have even considered taking it down, because I have been doing it for so long, but I feel like I'm talking to myself most of the time. That's kind of why I first started it, because I needed a place to talk to myself, but now I have grown to a desire to touch my audience. Not just myself.
I'm actually praying God will show me what to do with this blog, because I don't know that it's growing. And anything I pursue in life, after years, I really need to see the growth of it. Is this blog living in a sense where God is breathing on it to be a blessing to many??? Definitely praying about expansion and next steps.
In the meantime, I have come to realize that you are reading this as more than just a body on a computer. You are more then just your mind. You are a soul. In the culture we live in, we get treated like we are just our minds or we are just are bodies. Maybe we are just our accomplishments. This could not be further from the truth. We have actually bought into it, in many subtle ways, myself included. We have felt we have to obsess about our bodies, or that we have to heap up accomplishment after accomplishment for our life to be worth anything. Or we have to appear to know all the answers Or maybe you feel like you are just your paycheck and without that, you feel like you would be lost. Maybe you feel like you are the sum of what you can offer to others. That's a big one that I'm guilty of. But that is yet another lie. I am so much more that what I can offer to you or to anybody. I am a soul. A living breathing soul and so are you. Our souls are with us before we are born and they are eternal. They never die. How awesome is that. Your soul is your forever companion and we ought to do right by it don't you think?
When we find our value in the wrong things we tend to let the wrong things guide our lives, dictate our schedules, and determine our value to the world around us. God says you are valuable just because you have a soul, that's why before you even come out of the womb and accomplish anything, you are already valuable to God. Before you make any money, before you touch any lives, before you get married, before you have kids, before you step foot in a church, before you take your first steps, before you say your first words. Before any of this you are already valuable to God, because of your soul. It is your soul that is the upmost value to Him and should be the upmost value to you.
Jeremiah 1:5 - Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; Before you were born I sanctified you;
Even with this said it is so hard to get away from the feeling of worthlessness or get away from attaching our worth to the wrong things. But this gets tiring. And your soul grows weary because you are not nurturing your inward person (your soul). Have you ever felt empty? Have you ever felt like you have an insatiable appetite that never gets satisfied? Have you ever felt like you constantly need to be busy, for your life to be worthwhile? Have you ever felt like you are just waiting until the next thing to happen? Do you find it hard to exist in the moment? Does quietness or stillness make you uncomfortable? What do you do? Who do you consult? The Psalmist, David, consulted with his soul.
Psalm 13:2 How long shall I take counsel in my soul,
Psalm 42:5 Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me?
Our soul remembers things that our mind does not. You must take counsel with your soul. Many things that we think we are without are already within us. Answers we seek, because our soul is our connection to God. Our soul has had intimate fellowship with the Lord and our soul remembers God's plan for our lives. Our soul remembers what God spoke to us before we were formed in the womb. Your soul remembers, consult with your soul
As I pray about this blog, I hope that you will leave comments, let me know you're out there and I pray I can learn more about you and you don't remain anonymous. You can even send email. firstname.lastname@example.org