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THE TRUTH?

Over the last couple days I've thought about my life, my family, my friends, my business, and my blog.

John 8:32 says "You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free". There is a very simple area of my life where there is some bondage. I'm caught between 2 worlds that existed when I was very young. The world of "my mother" and the world of "my father". They were divorced and polar opposites. Obviously their worlds and environments were totally different. There were extremes involved here. I lived with mom but also spent summers and weekends with dad. I loved my mom and dad but because they were such extreme opposites I guess it was hard for me to figure out where I fit between their 2 worlds. I say this more as an adult. I feel like if I'm not "like" this parent then I must be "like" that parent. It's like I'm having a problem accepting my own unique identity in certain areas, for fear that...............well. An area I guess I need to work on is loving and accepting myself. Not loving myself only IF I'm "this way" or "that way" but just loving myself because God loves me. I believe that will free me up to love others more. I believe this would open the doors to alot of blessing in my life.
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