Seasons

Raising young children is a very distinct season in a woman's life.  Especially if you are a stay-at-home mom.  I am, so that's the perspective I write from.  When my daughter is home.  I'm on duty literally, from about 6:45am to about 5pm.  Even when she is napping, I'm "on duty".  That's how it is with you children, even when you are not actively engaged with them you are still "on duty".  You have to be available to them with their various needs and try to be in tune with those needs.  I am finding the more you accept this and don't try to fight the current, the better it goes.  Sometimes we try to fight the current in indirect ways.  Like for instance, a lot of times I'm too tired to go out with girlfriends, or even leave the house in the evening to get a break.  I use to force myself but I was so tired I couldn't enjoy it.  Now I just accept that this is the season I'm in.  It's not really a season for girl's night's out.  Of coarse I would love to put on heels and have makeup in place everyday but it's not the season for that.  Sometimes because I'm "on duty" I kind of sit around at my computer just waiting for the next need from my daughter to come up, or waiting until I have enough energy to complete my next chore.  I use to feel like "wow, I should be doing something more with my life".   But I don't feel like that anymore because it's just the season of life that I'm in right now.