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Letting go.............

My hubby and I have a contract on a house in Gainesville, VA.  It's a beautiful home.  But it's a short sale so it could take awhile before we even know if the bank is going to accept our offer.  But we strongly believe that this is the house we are going to get and it's not going to take too long to find out.  But in terms of the house we are in now.....................beautiful house but it is so not a good layout for our family.  With the pregnancy and all I have grown weary of trying to keep it organized and cleaned in such a way to fit our family.  Lately I've just been letting it go.  Not that it looks bad, because it doesn't.  It's always been kind of a high maintenance home as far as keeping it straight because of the floor plan.  It's very easy for everything to get all over the place especially with a little one.  I don't really function well with everything all over the place, but I have learned to tolerate it more lately because I'm tired of fighting against what just isn't working anymore.  I almost think God used my pregnancy to help me to realize it wasn't realistic for me to fight this battle in this house anymore the way that I was.  I do think that our next house will bring some relief and make staying organized a little easier.  For now, I'm letting go of the battle in this house. 
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