I did not previously feel comfortable with the idea of questioning whether discontentment could be from God at times. There is a scripture that says "godliness with contentment is great gain". That scripture kept me from exploring whether or not discontentment has a purpose in my life. As I read further into the context of that scripture, I believe Timothy is speaking more about material things. But I'm starting to think when it comes to the conditions of our hearts, that some discontentment is from God. There are certain areas in my life where I would like to experience much more joy. I believe there is so much more to be had, then what I presently experience. I believe that God has placed it on my heart that there is more. It seems God won't allow me to be satisfied with mediocrity in any area of life. But there is one particular area where my heart refuses to settle for anything less than the joy and blessings that God intended. That area is motherhood. There are lies that Satan has spoken in our culture about motherhood that has totally changed the way we perceive and govern ourselves in it. My dad passed recently and one big thing God showed me through my dad's life is that He answers prayer and never to give up praying for something, no matter how long it takes. The prayer I have about motherhood is something that was deposited in my heart very early on in my motherhood journey. I know it's from God and I know He will answer my prayer, for an abundance of joy and freedom. Jesus came that we may have life and have it in abundance.