Let me start by saying that "Whatever you are lacking in your life, God is fully capable of getting you there" God is fully capable of positioning you for blessing. Don't worry about trying to positioning yourself because you cannot. Trust God to do it. I have had a heavy change going on in my life and spirit. I had been having nudges from the Holy Spirit to make some changes in my life and be more committed to the tasks that have been assigned to me. That nudge from the Holy Spirit got stronger and stronger, soon God started to speak to me about why I needed to be committed to what He had assigned to me. Let me say that, I had already been committed to my marriage, to my kids, to being a stay-at-home mom. I have been doing it for almost 8 years. But God was not speaking about my natural roles, He was speaking about my "assignments" beyond that. There are things that God has assigned me to do, late at night when my kids have gone to bed. I work with a Christian organization online and even though I had a schedule, I would allow my tiredness to get to me at the end of the day and I wouldn't get online to coach. That' s what I do with the organization, I am a Christian, spiritual coach. I am suppose to coach Mon - Wed between 10:00 and 12am. I had been skipping days just because I was tired after being at home with a toddler all day and taking care of my family in the evening. What was happening is that I started to become very tired during the day as well, even when I skipped getting online to coach the night before. It seems the more rest I tried to get, the more fustrated I became because I was still tired. Then I started hearing inside my heart that "If I needed more, to give more". I believe God was saying to me that if I need more rest than I need to be more committed to staying up to do His work at night. It still took me awhile to actually start doing that. God started speaking to me about how my supply was in the roles I had beyond my natural roles and how my power was there. He started to show me how being committed to the coaching would give me power in other areas of my life and supply me with what I needed to be effective in my natural roles (mother, wife, etc.). Finally, after God spoke to me about that, I started coaching the 3 nights I was suppose to instead of taking off because I was tired. God was right, I started to have more energy then when I was taking time off, from coaching, to rest. Then I started to sense another nudging from the Holy Spirit about my getting up earlier than everybody else to get with God in the morning. This too, took a awhile for me. The nudging was persistent, then God started to speak to me about how "What you do in secret, will give you power in the daytime". I also sensed I was being led to dedicate a private space to God. God was not only asking for my time but physical territory to be dedicated to Him. As God was speaking to me about this, I was starting to find that I was getting fustrated in the mornings because I just started to feel I wasn't getting the time I needed with God, while my son watched his shows. It just wasn't enough. I started to sense a lack of direction in my days. While, at the same time God is making some big changes in my life and expanding certain areas of my life. Needless to say, I really did not see that I had a choice in the matter. I had to start getting with God in the morning. It seems the way I have been doing things for years is no longer adequate. There is a greater demand now and it requires greater supply. Now that I have started to spend time with God, it's been hit and miss a little bit, but God is still pushing for consistency, because what I keep hearing today in my spirit is that if I don't do it early in the morning; when the day starts it's too late. If I don't meet with God in the morning before everybody gets up, it will be too late for me to get what I need from God to ,ove forward in my day with a strong sense of direction in the decisions I make. The great news is that I get to start all over tomorrow, but I know what I'm hearing is that
"If you don't get what you need first thing in the morning, it will be to late for that day". I'm not saying this is for everybody, but this is what God is telling me. God is telling me that everything I need for that day will be supplied during my quiet time with Him in the morning. It's the only way.