Friday, March 29, 2013


Although I have never had cancer.  I have developed a certain hatred towards it since I got saved.  I hate what it does to our bodies.  It is a big enemy in our society.  Cancer is probably one of the scariest words in our vocabulary today.  Just the possibility of the enemy being in our body is enough to scare somebody stiff.  Cancer is a bully!!!!  I hate that it is attacking so many women today.   The scripture that comes to my spirit is below:

Luke 12:4
New King James Version (NKJV)Jesus Teaches the Fear of God
4 “And I say to you, My friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body, and after that have no more that they can do.

For those suffering right now, with this terrible enemy of our bodies, Jesus gives the comfort in the scripture above.  Cancer may be able to detroy the body, but it can't detroy your soul and it can't detroy God's purpose for your life.  Cancer absolutely cannot steal your purpose.  No matter what you go through healthwise, just know that your days were numbered before you were born,  the number of your days will be lived out according to what God has already predestined before you were born

Psalm 139:16

New King James Version (NKJV)
16 Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
The Word of God stands!  It stands in authority over everything.  Everything around us and inside us will respond to the word of God. 
One more thing that came to my heart today was this:  "I would give it all up just to have a cancer free body' "I would give it all up, just to have my health back".  You don't realize how much you take your own health for granted until something comes up against you and threatens your health.  I want to exhort all believers today....................If you are pain free and healthy, don't let anything else bother you today.  Only be in pursuit of Jesus today.  Realize that in an instant an enemy could come up against your body, to steal something very precious but not the most precious thing in our lives.  As long as you have your health and you are living pain free.......................use that to serve the Lord.  Enjoy your life!  Jesus died that we may have life and have it more abundantly.  Enjoy your life

1 Timothy 6:17

17 Command those who are rich in this present age not to be haughty, nor to trust in uncertain riches but in the living God, who gives us richly all things to enjoy.

Monday, March 25, 2013


I have been walking with the Lord for 11yrs now, and I have been blessed to be able to be under the leadership of some really great pastors.  What God has shown me in these years is that each pastor has a different conviction within the Body of Christ.  Each Pastor is endowed with different gifts.  My first pastor, at the church I got saved, one of the major gifts that God used in him was the gift of wisdom.  He seemed to have a special measure of this gift and God used it to build His kingdom within that church body and is still using it.

Then there was another Pastor I was under and he was always preaching on holiness.  It wasn't coming from a place where he thought he was "holier than thou".  It was just the conviction the God had given him to build that church on.  He preached about holiness almost every Sunday.  A conviction stronger than that of most Pastors.  That was what God gave to Him.

I follow Joseph Prince's Ministry, and God gave him "grace".  That's all he preaches, is grace.  But God has built his church on teaching about the grace of God.

My husband and I joined a new church in VA, about 1 year ago.  I just realized what God has given to my new Pastor, with which to build our church.  Mercy!!!  Our pastor has a special measure of the ability to be able to extend mercy.  It's more than most and I believe that it is what God will build our church on.  As long as he stays in his convictions and is bold in it.  If God gave it to you, you mineswell preach it recklessly.  Our church is kind of starting all over, due to a church fire in August of last year.  So I believe and I confess that the convictions that God has given our pastor is the convictions with which he will build our church!!

Friday, March 22, 2013

A Funny Thing Happens

I've seen a pattern in my spiritual life,  Everytime there is a major shift in my heart concerning the will of God for my life, the very next day something comes over me where I can't do much.  No matter how much I push myself, I can't seem to get the things done that I would normally get done.  Now I use to think this had something to do with Satan.  But as I spoke with my cousin, I realized that maybe it's God.  It has happened enough times now where it's got my attention. 

Normally when you have a major breakthrough in your life, you are ready to hit the ground running, but God's ways are not our ways.  So maybe it's God who quiets me down right after a breakthrough.  Maybe it's the Holy Spirit working in me, so I won't go all haywire in my emotions as a result of what God is doing. 

This is just something to think about.  When you see certain patterns in your life that continue to repeat themselves, allow God to help you connect the dots to see if it's from Him.

Thursday, March 21, 2013

Burying your talent????

In my daily meditating the scripture that has come to mind is

Matthew 25:29

New King James Version (NKJV)
29 ‘For to everyone who has, more will be given, and he will have abundance; but from him who does not have, even what he has will be taken away.

The above scripture has been on my mind, because I tend to shrink back from things.  It seems as I move forward in all the areas God has placed on my heart, it starts to get so big and so much that I back away.  I've been noticing a fade out pattern with me.  I think it starts to happen when I start trying to piece together the "how" in God accomplishing certain things through me.  I think I get a little afraid to pursue all that God has on my heart.  I feel like I have my plate full with 2 children; 5yrs and 10months old, a business with my husband and a beautiful home to keep in order.  I feel like as I keep taking steps forward to do what God has placed on my heart, more comes.  If you read the scriptures leading up to the one above, you will find that the servant with 1 talent, buried his instead of using it.  He buried it out of fear.  Look below:

24 “Then he who had received the one talent came and said, ‘Lord, I knew you to be a hard man, reaping where you have not sown, and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25 And I was afraid, and went and hid your talent in the ground. Look, there you have what is yours.’
He was afraid and because he was afraid, he buried his talent (also look at how he viewed the Lord. as a hard man. Is that how we view Jesus?).  Look below at what happens as a result:
28 Therefore take the talent from him, and give it to him who has ten talents.
He lost what he had because he didn't do anything with it. 
Do you want to loose what God has given you???  You have to do something with it, or you will.  Here's the thing;  Over the last 4 years or so, God has been working with me.  I knew He wanted me to take a quieter role in my walk and just spend some time listening to Him and giving Him some time to prepare me and heal me.  That's ok, I was not burying my talents.  I knew it was not time for certain things.  However, He has me in a season and He is saying to me NOW!  There are times attached to what the Lord wants to perform in our lives.  There is a scripture that states, that the vision is for an appointed time.  What do you do when the Lord says "now is time".  Do you have the wisdom to discern that the Lord is saying only do part of it?? I don't think so, a vision is a vision.  There comes a time when God says "now".  He is not saying do it partly.  I believe He is saying it's time to step into it completely.  Plus I don't think God does "partial" works.  No I think He is pretty complete.  Below is an example of this.  God told King Saul to go and utterly destroy all the Amalekites and Saul did not detroy all, he only did part of what God commanded.  Check it out:

15 Samuel also said to Saul, “The Lord sent me to anoint you king over His people, over Israel. Now therefore, heed the voice of the words of the Lord. 2 Thus says the Lord of hosts: ‘I will punish Amalek for what he did to Israel, how he ambushed him on the way when he came up from Egypt. 3 Now go and attack Amalek, and utterly destroy all that they have, and do not spare them. But kill both man and woman, infant and nursing child, ox and sheep, camel and donkey.’”

4 So Saul gathered the people together and numbered them in Telaim, two hundred thousand foot soldiers and ten thousand men of Judah. 5 And Saul came to a city of Amalek, and lay in wait in the valley.

6 Then Saul said to the Kenites, “Go, depart, get down from among the Amalekites, lest I destroy you with them. For you showed kindness to all the children of Israel when they came up out of Egypt.” So the Kenites departed from among the Amalekites. 7 And Saul attacked the Amalekites, from Havilah all the way to Shur, which is east of Egypt. 8 He also took Agag king of the Amalekites alive, and utterly destroyed all the people with the edge of the sword. 9 But Saul and the people spared Agag and the best of the sheep, the oxen, the fatlings, the lambs, and all that was good, and were unwilling to utterly destroy them. But everything despised and worthless, that they utterly destroyed.

Saul Rejected as King

10 Now the word of the Lord came to Samuel, saying, 11 “I greatly regret that I have set up Saul as king, for he has turned back from following Me, and has not performed My commandments.” And it grieved Samuel, and he cried out to the Lord all night. 12 So when Samuel rose early in the morning to meet Saul, it was told Samuel, saying, “Saul went to Carmel, and indeed, he set up a monument for himself; and he has gone on around, passed by, and gone down to Gilgal.” 13 Then Samuel went to Saul, and Saul said to him, “Blessed are you of the Lord! I have performed the commandment of the Lord.”

14 But Samuel said, “What then is this bleating of the sheep in my ears, and the lowing of the oxen which I hear?”

15 And Saul said, “They have brought them from the Amalekites; for the people spared the best of the sheep and the oxen, to sacrifice to the Lord your God; and the rest we have utterly destroyed.”

16 Then Samuel said to Saul, “Be quiet! And I will tell you what the Lord said to me last night.”
And he said to him, “Speak on.”

17 So Samuel said, “When you were little in your own eyes, were you not head of the tribes of Israel? And did not the Lord anoint you king over Israel? 18 Now the Lord sent you on a mission, and said, ‘Go, and utterly destroy the sinners, the Amalekites, and fight against them until they are consumed.’ 19 Why then did you not obey the voice of the Lord? Why did you swoop down on the spoil, and do evil in the sight of the Lord?”

20 And Saul said to Samuel, “But I have obeyed the voice of the Lord, and gone on the mission on which the Lord sent me, and brought back Agag king of Amalek; I have utterly destroyed the Amalekites. 21 But the people took of the plunder, sheep and oxen, the best of the things which should have been utterly destroyed, to sacrifice to the Lord your God in Gilgal.”

22 So Samuel said:
“Has the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices,
As in obeying the voice of the Lord?
Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice,
And to heed than the fat of rams.
23 For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft,
And stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry.
Because you have rejected the word of the Lord,
He also has rejected you from being king.”
When God said "all"; he meant "all".  Not "all, except.............".
Yes, I have a full plate.  But God is telling me to step out now..................I believe He means to step out into all of it.  All of what has been on my heart.  I believe He is telling me that now is not the time to sit on it, it's the time to step out into it.  I believe it is time sensitive.  I guess maybe I need to stop trying to figure out how to step into it and just do it.  See, keep in mind that sometimes stepping out there just means putting yourself out there to others and seeing what God does.  Don't try to work out the logistics.  Trust God to protect you.  When we first step out into our purpose and what God has designed you to do, you have to expect to be clumsy at first and to not really know how things are gonna pan out.  But you have to trust God to create structure and clarity as you step out on faith and trust Him.  One of my main things is my family.  I know that is my first ministry, I know what God has placed on my heart concerning my family.  But hey, if He is the one that gave me my family, shouldn't I trust Him to keep and preserve me in my role as mother and wife.  He is doing it now, why would it change; if He has let me know it's time to step out on some other things.  See, we have to remember sometimes when you step out, nothing might happen for several months, but that's not our concern.  Out part is just to step out there.  Just like Peter stepping out of the boat.  One thing I do know, if God is calling you to do something, He surely will not let you fall on your face.  Take one step at a time, don't get ahead of God.  Just take one step at a time.


Saturday, March 16, 2013

Lean in and eat!

The Female CEO of Facebook has written a book called "Lean In" Even though that book is not necessarily for me, the concept is for me as a Christian woman. God has been putting on my heart to "lean in" to what He is doing in my life. "Lean in" to the scriptures He is showing me. "Lean in" to the many blessed roles that He has given me: Child of God, Wife, Mother, Steward of many gifts.

The scriptures that I'm leaning into right now are:

John 6:53 New King James Version (NKJV)

53 Then Jesus said to them, “Most assuredly, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink His blood, you have no life in you.

Initially if you hear someone saying that you need to eat of His flesh, and drink His blood; it sounds kind of gross, right? But that's what I love about God. He is so extreme, so intense, so dramatic, so up close and in your face! He is like "don't just look at my flesh and my blood". Eat it, drink it! Receive what I did for you on the cross. Eat it! Drink it! Get it inside you. Get the bread of life inside you, get the blood inside you. Let it nourish you, let it sustain you, let it prosper you, let it heal you, let it restore. Let it saturate your whole being. Goodness gracious! Let me show you another extreme example of God:

Ezekiel 2:8
8 But you, son of man, hear what I say to you. Do not be rebellious like that rebellious house; open your mouth and eat what I give you.”

Ezekiel 3

New King James Version (NKJV)
3 Moreover He said to me, “Son of man, eat what you find; eat this scroll, and go, speak to the house of Israel.” 2 So I opened my mouth, and He caused me to eat that scroll.
3 And He said to me, “Son of man, feed your belly, and fill your stomach with this scroll that I give you.” So I ate, and it was in my mouth like honey in sweetness.

Do you see a pattern here? God was telling the prophet to eat His Word. In the book of John, He is telling us the same thing! God had Ezekiel physically eat the scroll, not because He wants us going around putting books in our mouths, but to illustrate the degree to which we need to engage in His word. Some of us just look at the Word of God, but never read it. Some of us just read the Word of God but never eat it. But let me tell you; God will literally stuff your face with His Word if you let Him. You notice above, in the book of Ezekiel it says "He caused me to eat that scroll". Meaning it wasn't in Ezekiel's own power and merit, but it was God. Wow! That would be a good prayer! Lord cause me to to eat Your Word.

All over the world there is one thing that I would say every culture loves, and that's eating good food! This tells you that it is something that God placed in us. We enjoy eating good food. There is a Psalm that says "Oh taste and see that the Lord is good". The Lord gave us the blessing to be able to taste the goodness of food, but that is also to be applied to His Word. There is an engagement we are suppose to have in His Word that is similar to that of eating food. But it will sustain us a whole lot better than regular food, and it will take us a whole lot further in life. Food does not have the ability to save, but the word of God does!!!!

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

Life on the inside of us

The life in you that wants to come out.  The life that wants to be expressed.  For many of us, the life we have living on the inside of us never really makes it to the outside.  The personality that we have living on the inside of us, never really makes it to the outside.  The energy we have living on the inside of us, never really makes it to the outside.  We have motivation on the inside of us that never really makes it to the outside.  The Holy Spirit is trying to birth things that are within us, but we are keeping it locked up inside.  Why????? Because it takes work to give birth, and then you have to pour in to what you birth.  Why do you think so many people opt to not have children. 

There is life on the inside of us, and until we allow it to come out of us; we are always going to feel something missing.  We are always going to feel stagnant, as if we are not moving forward.  As if the days are just passing us by. 

It takes work to birth that life that's on the inside of us and I'm not talking about work that is stressful or requires a whole lot of thought or consideration.  I'm talking about surrendering, our body to the Holy Spirit.  I'm talking about surrendering to the life that is on the inside of us.  It's a good life, but surrendering is not easy, because we have our own agendas and honestly the flesh is going to fight you every step of the way, but you have to be prepared for a battle.  Get what you need to encourage yourself.  If you surrendor your body to the Holy Spirit, He will go to work, but you will need to fight off that flesh.  King David slayed His enemies by doing what He was annointed to do.  He lived out the life that God put on the inside of Him.  That's the only way that we are going to defeat our enemies is by living out the life that God put on the inside of us.  It's there, oh I know it's there!!!!. 

Romans 12:1

Living Sacrifices to God

12 I beseech you therefore, brethren, by the mercies of God, that you present your bodies a living sacrifice, holy, acceptable to God, which is your reasonable service.
I can't stand that there is so much on the inside of me that is not coming out.  It needs to come out.  The bible says that "Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but when a desire comes it is a tree of life".  I asked God how do I do it all?  He says, let you body be used by the Holy Spirit.  Surrender to all the different callings on your life.  Surrender to your calling to be a child of God, Surrender to your calling to be a wife, surrender to your calling to be a mother, surrender to your calling in ministry.  Just surrender.  Your body will get tired but your spirit man will be renewed time and time again.  Surrender it now, or make yourself sick trying to hold it in. 

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

Get rid of the guilt

What if we totally lived guilt free????  It almost seems like an impossible possibility since I've lived with guilt as a companion for so long.  While I don't indulge in guilt as much as I use to,  it is still a force in my life. 

One day, the Lord let me know that deep down inside I feel like guilt benefits me in some way.  He showed me that deep down inside that I think guilt is going to beat me into being a better person.  He showed me that guilt does the opposite of what I thought it was going to do.  Guilt doesn not push you into being the person you want to be, it actually paralyzes you from moving foward in the direction you want to go.  Guilt is a paralyzing force.  To live guilt free is not easy, but through God all things are possible.  Get rid of the paralyzing force of guilt in your life.

There is therefore no condemnation for those who are in Christ, Jesus

Monday, March 11, 2013

Rest in Jesus today

1 Corinthians 10:13

New King James Version (NKJV)
13 No temptation has overtaken you except such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able, but with the temptation will also make the way of escape, that you may be able to bear it.

The Lord is my shepherd, I have everything I need.

I needed to get with God this morning.  I needed to put my focus on Jesus.  I need not fret, about my week and all I have going on.  I need to just put my eyes on Jesus.  The lover of my soul.  I am part of His flesh and bones and He is surely with me, fighting my battles for me.  He carries me right now in His body.  He is everything I need right now today.  He is my wisdom, He is my strength, He is my energy, He is my guidance, He is my financial provision.  He is my nourishment.  He is my healing.  With allergies running rampant, Jesus is the healing for my children from the allergies that disrupt their little bodies.  Jesus can cleanse from anything that is in their little bodies that is not suppose to be there.  Their allergies are just a blessing from God, because it's is what our body does to cleanse itself of toxins. 

Sometimes, there are things you want to get done for a project or for work, but it's good to stop and meditate on the goodness of Jesus instead.  Sometimes instead of tackling stuff yourself, it's best to nail it to the cross. 

Friday, March 1, 2013

God's Grace is on you, but where???

I always believe that there are specific areas where God is focused in our lives at any given time.  It's important to tune-in to the Holy Spirit so  you can know where.  It is in that place where God is focused on working, where you will experience His grace.  It's so important not to jump out there and say "Oh, I want to get better at this..." when that might not be where the Holy Spirit is focused right now. 

Everything we do, we want to be under grace, not under law.  Meaning we don't want to merely do it because it's the "right thing to do".  We want to do it because the Holy Spirit is leading us.  How do you know what areas those are?

The whispers and suggestions of the Holy Spirit will tell you.  Many times if we are spending time with God and cultivating His presence in our lives, we will hear the Holy Spirit making the same suggestions over and over again to us.  The same things will weigh on our hearts. 

Being a stay-at-home mom and running a business from home, I have so much on my plate everyday.  There have been some areas of homelife that have really been bothering me. 

1.  Being able to jump in the shower everyday is such a challenge
2.  Not being dressed and prepared to get out and take walk first thing in the morning with my baby
3.  Not having a clean kitchen in the mornings when I wake up to motivate and inspire me in something I love doing, cooking. 

While I'm not trying to do it all.  These things are a problem for me.  I would like get some control over these things but I know I have to be leaning on God's grace at the same time.  I don't think these things would have become so bothersome for me if God wasn't ready to extend His grace to me in this area.  But that doesn't mean I don't have to push.  I believe I'm going to have to get up earlier to take a shower and get dressed, before the kids get up.  That's hard to think about doing since I'm up at night with my 9 month old.  That will help me with 2 of these items.  The next hard things is making sure the kitchen is clean every night.  Another thing that is hard, because I'm so tired by the time I get the kids to bed, that I don't want to do 1 more task.  I just want sit on the couch and do nothing.  Jumping in the shower in the morning to get dressed and cleaning the kitchen before bed will add an abundance to my life and the life of my family.  I believe it's worth it.  But I know it's not going to be easy.  But as I press in and lean on God's grace, being aware that it's there to help me develop these habits.  God's grace is not there to help you get everything perfect.  It's there to help you in the areas that are going to bless you and the people around you in different seasons of life. 

Follow Us!!